Friday, 5 June 2015

Dedication

There has been a time, about 5-6 years ago, that I considered myself to be good at World of Warcraft. It was the end of Wrath of the Lich King expansion, Cataclysm was dawning, and I had found a home in a Horde guild on Vashj-EU.

I had rerolled from a Hunter to a Warrior (a decision that I still slightly regret untill this day) and was topping DPS meters on most fights due to broken Warrior scaling and the famous trinket from Saurfang. I would spend hours reading up on my class, tweaking, practicing, just to make sure I was doing the best possible thing I could do.

Fast forward and I have kind of lost my touch. I am an average Shadow Priest, I'm not the best, I'm not the worst but it isn't really my forte. Don't get me wrong, I love my Priest to death but the Shadow specc is not and has never been an specc I could excel at. I have always played Holy rather well and I can now find my way around the Disc specc. But I will never be on the same level as Shadowpriest as I was when I was playing Hunter and later Warrior.
I try to improve here and there. I know I can pull amazing numbers when need be (40k DPS on Iron Maidens Heroic puts me in the top 25% of the Shadowpriest population) but for some reason I can't seem to perform to the maximum of my abilities. Everything that came so natural to me on Hunter and Warrior is now a struggle. And I wonder if I have chosen the wrong class for this expansion.

Of course just pure DPS isn't everything. When it comes to game sense, spatial awareness and improvisation I haven't lost any of my earlier prowess. But the DPS well...
Maybe it has to do with the fact that I don't really have a drive to compete anymore. The guild I'm currently in is very (very!) casual, raiding only two times a week with no real aim except for clearing Heroic raids before the next tier of raiding comes out.
I also make a cameo every Sunday in a Horde guild on a Balance Druid which, to be honest, I'm not a fan of playing at all. I'm seriously considering dropping that raidgroup seeing as I feel no attachment to it whatsoever. The only thing keeping me there is the fact that one of my closest friends raids with them and I still want to be able to play with him.

So here I find myself in the position that I lack dedication to both of my raid teams. That I lack dedication to WoW as a game and to see what I can improve as a Priest. And it's wearing me down.. I feel the serious WoW burnout and I'm not sure how to handle it. I'm still of the opinion that Blizzard has made a good game. I still love my Priest. But I just can't be arsed to put in the effort to get to the point that I excel on my character again.
And I don't know how to change it... :(

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